Life - where are you?!

Lovelies, I want the great events to happen in my life NOW!

I want to get married NOW. I want to have a family NOW. I don't want to wait another year, week or day.

I want my husband to show up so I can start having a life with him. I want to have munchkin Musicals before my eggs dry up in 8 years (Plus I want to be a hot mom - you know that mom who was the hot mom in your elementary school class - how she was the envy of all the kids as the "cool mom".)

WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?!?! I have an agenda to keep here.

And PS lovelies, all of this is coming on because I'm in love with a friend who will never love me back, I'm ovulating and I just found out via facebook that yet ANOTHER of my high school friends is getting married and ANOTHER of my theatre community friends has been gorgeously pregnant the past 9 months and just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl.

Jealously doesn't even begin to explain it.

But I am living my dream in NYC. But what good is a dream when you don't have someone to share it with? Or a child to pass it along to? (Although I do have Henny Penny to get my baby sillies out... so that's good, I guess).

I'm thinking of taking a lover to help get my "must procreate" out of my system. I have a work "boyfriend" from a previous job who's volunteered to fill the position for Lover to Miss Musical - I'm also taking other applications... but so far he's the only candidate. (good thing he's really hot and nice - think it will be a great endeavour for me.)

Wonders of a child....

Lovelies, I was on nanny duty this afternoon. I decided to make the most of the beautiful day here in NYC and took the 2 year old munchkin, Henny Penny, to the zoo in Central Park. They have a petting zoo area and he mooed like a cow for a good 20 minutes when were were by the cow. Brilliant child.

As he's mooing Henny Penny turns to me and says "See Auntie Musicl, I speak cow!"

I lost my shit. It was SO funny!!!

And then he continued mooing....

Sometimes I wish I could live with the abandon that he does. He does not care what others think of him, only that they like him. He feels no shame or awkwardness in mooing for 20 minutes in front of perfect strangers. But the part I admire the most is how freely he gives his love.

I hold my love back a lot of the time. With my friends, family and potential sutiors. What am I so freakin' afraid of that keeps me from spouting off my feelings that comes so naturally to this relatively new-to-earth boy??

Hmmm...

Best part of the day BY FAR was when we were walking home and he turns around in his stroller...

Henny Penny: "Auntie Musical?"

Me: "Yes, muffin?"

Henny Penny: "I love you."

Me: "Thanks, buddy! I love you, too!"

(as this is not cute enogh he keeps going)

Henny Penny: "No, Auntie Musical. I don't just love you, I LOVE you."

I promptly stopped the stroller, went in front and gave him a hug! Was the best feeling ever! He teaches me so much everyday!

Tomorrow I get to audition again for Wicked... We'll see how the green machine goes this time around...

You can't see the Chrysler Building from Minnesota.

Lovelies, I was having a chat with my friend Coffee Man tonight (whom wishes to be referred to as the Espresso Genius now - ah, men & their egos...) and was whining about how sad I was leaving Minnesota.  It's such a problem I have...  

I love New York, but I also love Minnesota.  I usually end up talking about Minnesota a lot of the time in NYC.  I bust out the accent to give my friends a good laugh and the occasional "Yah, you betcha" for a giggle here & there.  But seriously - I'm fiercely proud of my Minnesota roots and wear my heart on my sleeve about that issue.  

At the same time, when I'm back in MN I kinda miss being in the hustle & bustle of New York City.  I enjoy a great many things about NYC!  I love going skating at Bryant Park in the winter, I love the tall buildings and seeing Lady Liberty on a monthly basis.  I love playing "tour guide" ad it's very fun to have family and friends come out here & visit...

.... However, there's always the flip side where I miss walking around the Lakes, I miss going to my home church with my parents, I miss my cabin in the summer and I miss seeing my family on a weekly basis.  

I do want to have a career on Broadway & regional theatre.  I also want to move home and have my children (someday) in Minnesota with a husband who enjoys living there as much as I do!   (Seriously - it's a great place to raise kids!)

Garrison Keillor of "Prairie Home Companion" fame moved back from NYC to raise his daughter in Minnesota.  Can I do that too?  (He's also 65 years old and fathered his daughter at 55...  I'm on a little more of a time crunch.  My eggs have an expiration date in about 10 years...)

We shall see, my lovelies...  We shall see what the future holds for Miss Musical

I Love my Job!

Well lovelies, I blog a lot about my musical experiences and none of that could happen if it weren't for my personal assistant job & the Lovely Upper East Side Family supporting me!  (Both financially & emotionally!)  So this perticular blog is for them!  

Today's fun errands for the Lady of the House include running to the florists to pick up a fancy 

orchid & specify which type & delivery method; Go to the Post Office & mail back fancy purse 

and fancy digital photo frame to their respective companies (Vivre and Aluratek...) 

And then continue with my project of downloading all 10,000 photos from the Mac Book Pro to CD's.  (God love the Toast Program!  It rocks my world - I've already done all the video to DVD footage & that's taken me only 2 days!)  

Plus I get to nanny for the cutest little boys in the world when the full time nanny has her days off!  (HHC who is almost 2 years old and TSC who is 4 months!)  They are the best!  Truly...  

They call me "Auntie" and I love every second & would do anything for them!  Such happy & fun little boys!  I never thought I'd be able to love another persons child SO much - but I guess I can!  

When I moved to NYC in June of 2006 I had just ended a great personal assistant gig in Minnesota!  (I also dabble in home organization - but that's a whole other field that I've yet to really get into!)  So I was working at the Pan Asian Palace as a hostess in Times Square and also working for a furniture store in chinatown - busy right?? Well, I wasn't able to make the bills, nor did I have any time to audition!  (Which is what I came out to NY to do!)  

I applied like crazy online for personal assistant jobs and Lady of the House was the only person who got back to me.  It must have been meant to be!  I was one out of 10 girls that were interviewed and I got it!  Hooray!  The family is just delightful because they are SO nice and SO kind!  I just love them!  And they can put up with my crazy audition schedule!  (and they love me!)  Is it just like the Nanny Diaries??  NOT AT ALL!!!  :)  

Life just really couldn't be any better!  I've got a great job, I'm persuing my dream & I've aquired a "second family" within a two years of being in NYC!  

Now I've gotta run & get an orchid...