Lovelies, have you ever gotten yourself so worked up about something that you become physically ill??
I have had this problem since I was in grade school.... I used to get so nervous in Ms. Shima's 1st grade classroom and then I felt ill and I would have to leave and go to the nurses office & lay there for a bit. Sometimes I even went home.
In my adult life it's gotten a lot better - but there's one time when these nerves come back & play a game of flag football in my stomach: When I've had a decent callback & I'm waiting for the phone call if they gave me the part or not.
That's where I'm at today. I felt like I had a lovely callback last night for Thoroughly Modern Millie - I rocked at the singing, felt really good about my scene work and thought that I did a pretty nice job with the quick & difficult dance routines that were happening.
I know last year when I was up for the lead for this same company that they called the girl who go it by 8pm the night after. I don't know if that's the same way that things are working this year, but my guess is that it probably is the same way...
I'm so worked up over this because I care! I care SO much! I really REALLY want this show and I know it's just 1 show, but darn it - I've come SO close SO many times and then they all say "Thanks Miss Musical"... What I want to know is WHEN WILL IT BY MY TURN??!! I'm ready! I want it! I can DO this part!
I know that everything happens for a reason and that I shouldn't get so stressed out about this, but c'mon - To get the lead in a tap musical that pretty much is my dream role... Well, you do the math on that one...
And to make matters worse, I'm getting a little upset at myself for having this kind of reaction! I'm an adult - I should be able to control these things!
If anyone out there has good suggestions about waiting and what to pray for, please let me know... I need some serious patience in my life when it comes to waiting to hear back from a callback...
